the red rose;
mello
sweet sixteen
romantic dreamer
bipolar
cynical
an oxymoron
loves witty people
song pusher and addict
in a nutshell, nothing but sarcasm and a little glitter
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i wrote something 2 days ago but blogger deleted it. heh. going to be rather busy tonight so decided to blog a little.. tonight's my turn for general chores and changing the sheets. a person can get used to anything, given time. frightening thought, isn't it? i could learn to be a nun. my false calling.
anyway, my new class. hmmm. let's see.. i told some people about my being les with vank and joan.. they actually believed me.. hahaha. incredible, considering that over in sa no one believed vank. i'm such a two-timer. haha. who cares. i can't honestly say i get along with everyone, but i can honestly say that i don't give a damn. which is good, because i will not compromise myself. plus i like being unique. nice people are abundant in this world, why be so common? i'll just go on saying what i think and may the devil care. i've realised something.. i never meant to hurt any of you.. but with them.. i don't know them, i'm hurting so much from being apart from you.. i'm just stinging everyone and anyone, i really can't care, i want to go back to yesteryear and be with you, just hear your voice and see your face. it's not fair to them. but frankly my dear, i don't give a damn. i might regret this when i get to know them better. maybe i won't, ever. but right now.. well back to my class. erh the guys are surprisingly nicer than expected. really. big big big surprise. this is a little hard on me, given my anti-guy reputation. i mean.. after 10 years of announcing that i'm pro-female and anti-guy.. i discover that some of the enemy really aren't that bad.. well what can i say? c'est la vie. by the way, bitchy girls still exist. *no further comments* and oh there are pretty girls in my class. quite pretty anyway. no stunning beauties, but what do you expect? i take back what i said about ugly hc people. after about the tenth glance they start to look okay. just maybe not as beautiful as our people are. =) my class is horribly hardworking. they were doing math this morning.. i didn't know whether to laugh or to cry. give me st marg's 4e6 '04 any day! so much less stress. well. i'll play this week and start on homework and the rest of the stuff with them next week. sigh. i realise my chinese sucks. woe betide me!
joined rovers and library. if i qualify to be a ya and the details are fine with me, i'll drop rovers and go back as a ya, keeping library as my slack jc cca. if i don't, i'll go back anyway, get ms ho to certify that it's an official service, and still keep library. maybe rovers too if i feel like it. but i'm really not the active movement sort, so maybe not. although it would be nice to have a real cca in hc.. library isn't real to me!
you'll never realise how happy it made me when you called the other night just to say you love and miss me. =) it made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.. like i actually mean something.. and there is really no reply to this except.. i love and miss you too. sigh. everyday we trudge on, facing strange new people. everyday i miss you like crazy.
does anyone have the song everlasting love? i'm in love with it. i need to eat sleep breathe it, life has lost its meaning.. where are you tonight?